A Lover of Paradox

Even if the point of life is nothing at all, that’s still a point.

We spend so much of our lives trying to extract meaning from everything—every person, every moment, every feeling—as if existence owes us an explanation. I’m no exception. Around this time last year, I was deep in that spiral. Whenever I felt lost, unmotivated, or overwhelmed, I’d default to the same quiet conclusion: there’s no point. Especially when you’ve brushed up against mortality more than once, it’s easy to see everything through that lens.

But then something shifted.

Isn’t “no point” still… a point?

Nothing is still something. Even without grand meaning, without some cosmic design or poetic justification, the fact remains: we are here. We wake up. We feel. We choose. We act. That alone makes each day an opportunity—not because it has to mean everything, but because it doesn’t have to mean anything at all.

Maybe that’s where the freedom lives.

We’ve been trying to solve a puzzle with missing pieces, forcing clarity where none exists, demanding answers from a system that was never built to provide them. But what if the goal was never resolution? What if the answer isn’t choosing between meaning and meaninglessness—but holding both at once?

To exist is to live inside contradiction.

So maybe peace comes not from understanding, but from acceptance. From becoming a lover of paradox. From letting things be unfinished, undefined, unresolved.

Because the moment we stop demanding that life make sense is the moment we’re finally free to live it.

Something did change when I stopped demanding meaning from everything.

I didn’t become empty—I became lighter.

I started to detach from the things that were never meant to hold me in the first place. The situations I used to force, the spaces I tried to fit into, the expectations I carried just because I thought I had to—I began to let them fall away. Not all at once, not perfectly, but enough to feel the difference.

And the difference was quiet, but undeniable.

I became kinder to myself. I started approaching situations with a softer hope instead of a rigid outcome. I realized that my world isn’t something happening to me—it’s something I’m constantly shaping through perception. And thank God for that, because it means I have some say in how I experience all of this.

If meaning isn’t guaranteed, then perspective becomes everything.

And in that space—where nothing is promised, nothing is fixed—I still chose to care.

Not because I had to. Not because it would lead somewhere. But because it’s stitched into me. Caring feels like breath. Like instinct. Like something deeper than logic could ever explain. Passion, love, determination—they don’t disappear just because the universe doesn’t hand out clear answers.

If anything, they become more honest.

The art of caring started to feel sacred to me. Not weak, not naive—intentional. Because to care, especially in a world that might not require it, is a choice. And there is something incredibly beautiful about choosing it anyway.

To care is to consider.

And consideration—genuine, thoughtful, human consideration—might be one of the purest forms of meaning we create for ourselves.

So maybe that’s where I’ve landed, for now:

Not in needing life to mean something, but in choosing what feels meaningful to me.

And letting that be enough.

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