I want to open myself up to someone—romantically.
I know I have the opportunity, the ability, to go on dates. But I don’t. Maybe it’s because I have bigger fish to fry than romance right now. Maybe it’s because I’m not truly over what was, or I haven’t fully grasped what it turned into—or maybe what I didn’t turn it into.
Still, I want to explore that side of myself again.
The thing is, I know most people are rooted in lust. And that makes it so hard to trust. So what do we do when we find ourselves in this space?
Because at the same time, I don’t even know if I want “love.” What I really want is light. A connection. Something that feels like a close friendship but deeper, softer. That in-between space that doesn’t have a name, because labels ruin it.
And that’s the hardest part—we live in a generation obsessed with labeling every interaction. If it’s not “dating,” it’s a “situationship.” If it’s not “exclusive,” it’s “talking.” Everything has to be boxed in and defined before it’s even had the chance to breathe.
I don’t want that. I don’t want to rush to name it. I don’t want to suffocate something real with a label just so it makes sense to everybody else. I want to experience the joy of being seen, of being met, of sharing time and energy with someone who just gets it—without immediately having to categorize it.
The problem is, that space is rare. Most people aren’t patient enough to let something natural unfold without trying to control it. Most people want to know, “what are we?” before they even know who they are themselves.
So I’m left craving this thing that doesn’t “exist,” at least not in the way the world talks about relationships. And maybe that’s okay. Maybe the point is to stop forcing it into a “real thing” and just let it be whatever it is—light, laughter, curiosity, comfort, connection.
Because honestly? That’s what I want. Not a checklist. Not a title. Just presence.
And if you’re in that same in-between space, I see you. Maybe that’s enough right now—to know we’re not alone in craving something that doesn’t have a name yet.
