I have so many questions about so many things. my mind feels like it goes at 100 miles per hour. It’s just bizarre to me, that we are these spiritual intellectual beings, capable of so many things, have discovered so many different things, but yet we know NOTHING at all. Perhaps we do, but we’re all not in on the niddy griddy. There’s just so many ‘what if’s’ in the world it’s mind boggling. There are so many galaxies and universes out there that we know nothing about, and i wonder, do they know about us? Honestly, Earth is def the ghetto to them, i could see us being the Florida of the universe. I wish we could all sit at a council meeting and discuss whats going on at all these places because i’m DYING to know, on one hand that is. There’s a part of me that loves the hidden and mystery of this all. It provides a sense of tranquility. It calms me that I’m literally just this small piece of something so big. So big where my fears, flaws and failures don’t matter, borderline don’t exist. It makes me feel like nothing matters, but then that makes me feel nothing matters. My heart, hopes and dreams. Don’t get it confused though, i know that regardless oblivion is inevitable. No matter what other worlds are out there, there is going to be time where the world is going to turn to dust and no one’s going to remember we were here. Which is my whole point of this, this leads to so many questions. More questions for others than some, i guess that depends on your beliefs, but questions nonetheless. My main one being, what is the point of all of this? I’ve been a crystal girly, a textbook christian, read up on so many things, from an unbiased standpoint trying to find the reason and one the genuinely wholeheartedly makes sense. And, nothing. Which lead me to more questions, my main one being: Why does it matter? Why does it matter why we’re here? Why do we as a society and humans focus so much on this? We’re here, for whatever reason it is, even if we never know and that means something, that counts for something. We count for something. My days of wondering about the “why” will never be over, but I’ve shifted lanes. I’ve learned that in life we don’t need to “why.” We don’t need to know what the ‘meaning” of all of this, we don’t need to question the human experience or why it’s happening. Just like we don’t need to know why they treated us like that, why we didn’t get what we wanted, why we were dealt the cards we were. It literally doesn’t matter, the only thing that does is what we take away from it. How we use it to grow and learn and positively impact those around us and the quality of our own lives. How we use it to enrich and empower our souls because, in my eyes, that is the only part of us and that can stand against the test of time. So, I will continue this human experience, wondering and questioning, but with the intention to grow and learn and not for the aspect of being in control.
Talks of the Universe
